Posts Tagged ‘soulmate’

life update: i’m getting married!!!!

August 27, 2018


Did you just read that?!

I’m getting married!!!!!!!

I found my soulmate. My other half. The love of my life! My ForeverAndAlways.

We’ve been dating since March of this year. We are eloping in next month.

So, I’ve been married before. I pledged my fucking life to someone. And I was positive that time. But, you guys, this is so incredibly different. Night and day different. This isn’t about being with someone that I could age with and enjoy their company and love and respect and blah blah blah. This is about COULD NOT LIVE A DAY WITHOUT THIS MAN kind of married.

I’m marrying my best friend.

And I rolled my eyes at that phrase MANY A TIMES in my life. I thought that was a dumb thing to say. And it couldn’t possibly be ever true. Just something people say because they are trying to justify their decisions. I was so wrong. I felt bad for people that said the shit I’ve been saying these days about soulmates and fate. But i was the one that needed the pity!

Any who. Wanted to catch ya up. 🙂

Happy Monday!

“moving on”

May 19, 2015

I found a blog yesterday.

Its a bereavement blog. A guy lost his wife in February of this year. Its about his grief Journey. Of course, I HAD to go back to the beginning. I’m finally getting caught up. I can not imagine having someone ripped from me in this life that i was so intwined with. First off, I can’t imagine being so intwined. Divorcing someone is one thing… you kind of untwine then divorce… but… to lose someone while still in the grips of “in love”? I can’t fathom. She was 43. They had been married a year… and only known each other for 2 and half years.

His whole blog is about what “moving on” might mean. How one can fine a “new normal” and “get on” with life. How does one keep living when their reason for living is no more. There is NO relief for this man’s heart break. Every second of every day. pain pain pain.

Are we suppose to do this in relationships? Make a person your universe? make them your everything? I knwo that i personally can’t handle that kind of pressure. but is that just because i’ve never been there? Is this what it takes? I can’t imagine.

I see (very few) couples where they are two halves of a whole. They really do function better together. Not just better, but they keep each other tuned up. Keep each other moving. Their significant other is the reason for every single action they decide to take.

Am I too selfish to find this kind of love in my life time? Is this love for every one? Is this just a certain type of personality? Maybe all these questions mean I haven’t found “the one”. If that is real… and just me voicing doubt right there is my point. can’t imagine.

I would like that. I think. I don’t know. Could I handle that pressure. Can one person on this planet shift my priorities so much so that I become the non-selfish person that i’m not today?

I’m truly just rambling today. Thoughts?