Posts Tagged ‘scared’

new direction 5

March 21, 2017

So instead of giving my boss my decision about what direction we should proceed in about my “harassment”. I decided to turn in my two week notice. I was mad and sad and completely bitter about the whole thing for the first week. I told him to keep it hush/hush till I was ready to announce it. And thru the weekend I turned it around. I’m so excited. I’m not going to excuse my manager’s action, but I can see the corner I backed him into as well. I’m feeling much more at peace about the decision. And ready for the next phase in life.

I have these HOLY SHIT WHAT HAVE I DONE moments.

I quit my job. I can’t believe it. I’ve been wanting to do this for so long. Today is the my last Tuesday here. I’m so fucking excited!

I’m fucking terrified! I know this is the kick in the pants I needed to get out of this field. IT is so not me. A desk job… dealing with these men. I’m not cut out for this.

And It’s the right time. I feel like between me finding this new career I feel confident about and my manager putting me in a very uncomfortable situation, the path is so clear right now. I’ve never felt like a future was clear before. But this feels as if a path has opened up. Wellness coaching is something that I can really really get behind. I already bought into it with my own life so long ago. It really does feel perfect.

I get to inspire people for a living! WHAT?! Do you know how much sunshine and rainbows I have ready and waiting for you people??? I want to shower people with love and compliments and help people be gracious with themselves and learn how to shower themselves in love and compliments. I want to teach people how to love themselves in a new way. Teach them that they can love themselves right now in the skin they are in while improving their every day life and decision making processes.

I start my certification next Monday. It’s all online. So I’ll have plenty of time for part time, minimum wage jobs. I’m happy I have savings that allow me to do this. I’d be completely stuck here if I didn’t.

I’m ready to get on this next roller-coaster. I know it’ll be rough. I’ll be broke for a while. And I may never make what I was making, but I’ll be happy. I’ll get to work with and help people. I’ll get to believe in my own work. There’s a force driving me more than a paycheck.

It’s good. I’m happy. I’m scared. But I’m ready.

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