Posts Tagged ‘new job’

new direction 5

March 21, 2017

So instead of giving my boss my decision about what direction we should proceed in about my “harassment”. I decided to turn in my two week notice. I was mad and sad and completely bitter about the whole thing for the first week. I told him to keep it hush/hush till I was ready to announce it. And thru the weekend I turned it around. I’m so excited. I’m not going to excuse my manager’s action, but I can see the corner I backed him into as well. I’m feeling much more at peace about the decision. And ready for the next phase in life.

I have these HOLY SHIT WHAT HAVE I DONE moments.

I quit my job. I can’t believe it. I’ve been wanting to do this for so long. Today is the my last Tuesday here. I’m so fucking excited!

I’m fucking terrified! I know this is the kick in the pants I needed to get out of this field. IT is so not me. A desk job… dealing with these men. I’m not cut out for this.

And It’s the right time. I feel like between me finding this new career I feel confident about and my manager putting me in a very uncomfortable situation, the path is so clear right now. I’ve never felt like a future was clear before. But this feels as if a path has opened up. Wellness coaching is something that I can really really get behind. I already bought into it with my own life so long ago. It really does feel perfect.

I get to inspire people for a living! WHAT?! Do you know how much sunshine and rainbows I have ready and waiting for you people??? I want to shower people with love and compliments and help people be gracious with themselves and learn how to shower themselves in love and compliments. I want to teach people how to love themselves in a new way. Teach them that they can love themselves right now in the skin they are in while improving their every day life and decision making processes.

I start my certification next Monday. It’s all online. So I’ll have plenty of time for part time, minimum wage jobs. I’m happy I have savings that allow me to do this. I’d be completely stuck here if I didn’t.

I’m ready to get on this next roller-coaster. I know it’ll be rough. I’ll be broke for a while. And I may never make what I was making, but I’ll be happy. I’ll get to work with and help people. I’ll get to believe in my own work. There’s a force driving me more than a paycheck.

It’s good. I’m happy. I’m scared. But I’m ready.

Inspiration hits!

September 2, 2016

Plan for the next few weeks:

  • Start weaning off coffee… I know I know… big deal, right?!?!? I’m converting to tea! Well, maybe. WE SHALL SEE!! Hoping this helps my terrible sleeping problem.
  • Add 2 days of cardio to my routine per week.
  • Start a 3 day strength cycle of cleans, squats, and snatches (power lifting) on top of my workout routine. Time to get heavy and make some gainz!
  • Follow up on a resume I submitted for a bakery manager position. Time to get career/life focused on what I REALLY want to do.

I’m not sure why this vacation energized me to get some shit straight and make some improvements. BUT I FEEL SOOOOO READY!

moving on and making changes

July 7, 2016

I’m going to the shooting range tonight. I hate that I’m emotional over something that is suppose to be FUN!

One of my really good guy friends is going with me. He doesn’t do the gun like I don’t. Should be an experience for both of us.

I’m glad I’m doing it instead of losing my money over it. I feel like this is a step towards closure over mitch. Silly, but I really felt I had to do this and not let him get in the way of this experience for me.

I’ve thought about calling mitch. But… not sure why. What would I accomplish? Probably could only do more harm than anything. Is there closure to be had? That would be awesome. But I don’t think that exists here.

I hate being so emotional. I hate being so dissatisfied in life. Hate feeling so… so… unhappy and unsettled… and like I’m in limbo for something. What am I waiting on? To get over mitch? To like my job? To what?

But I finally reached a point in my complaining and dissatisfaction where I’ve started taking action. I have finished my resume. It’s time to start job searching. I’m looking forward to the search. I know that it won’t be easy, but the fact that I’m doing something to change this is definitely a positive over all this negative I feel. Feeling productive is my all time happy place.

I also met with my business consultant about the market research on my idea. All things positive on that front for sure. But this is going to be a long haul process of doing it right. My business plan has to be solid. And as of this far I have no numbers on paper. What a daunting task. I’ll get there tho. I’m not in a hurry here and that feels good. Feels like I’m in control.

SIGH.

Okay… wish me luck on the shooting range this afternoon!

empty bed and spoiled humans

January 11, 2016

Me and A have spent almost every weekend together since we got started a little over three weeks ago. It’s the new norm. I get two nights with him. Five without.

I only spend two nights with him versus the five without. So why then when Sunday night rolls around once again is it so foreign to not have him in the bed next to me? It seems much more silent in my apartment than before he was there to begin with. How does that work?

I’ve always said that humans are really easy to spoil. I mean, we can have one good day and wonder why the next day we didn’t get what was owed to us… of course in reality it wasn’t owed to us even when the good day was happening. So I guess it’s just the case with Me and A. I’m spoiled in the two nights we spend together. And feel it unfair that I have to spend 5 without him.

On a happy note he started a new job today! It offers a small salary bump and AND AND AND!!!!! He won’t have to work nights.

Hallelujah! PRAISE THE LORD. And all other deities that deserve it!

His energy levels have been tanked while he’s been on nights. It’s both a blessing and a curse that I’m a lot to keep up with… But only a blessing if you have the energy for it  🙂 🙂 🙂 <— at least one of smilies should have horns on them.