Posts Tagged ‘denial’

that one guy

January 12, 2017


So… that one guy? I’ve been trying to break up with him for a few weeks now. We’ll have a conversation about how I’m not feeling it and that I’m ready to call it quits and he jumps into begging mode. Seriously, last Sunday we had a 3 hour argument that I ended with, “I can’t have this conversation anymore. I need to break for food.”

To say that threw me off the first time (the whole begging thing) would be an understatement. Most of the time I was with this guy I could barely tell if he liked me. In fact, I asked him that several times in the beginning saying things like, “If you aren’t feeling this then we can walk away now. No hard feelings.” But he assured me each time he just had a slightly different time line than i was use to. Okay. Fine. But… 6 months later and I still feel like an after thought most days? Yes. He did jump in pretty fiercely after the hospital thing, but that’s plain and simple because he had nothing else going on. As soon as something popped up, he was gone. And asking if he could come over past 10pm… I don’t like that. Gimme more than bedtime. It’s not acceptable to make plans with me only to break them because the guys are watching the game. Go watch the game. That’s not the problem. But don’t break plans with me to do it. That sucks.

Anyway… didn’t expect him to hold on. He’s in some kind of denial. But even now the only thing we talk about when he texts (which are becoming fewer and fewer so maybe he is catching on) is him having a head cold and how his drainage is causing a tummy ache and dry heaving…. It’s hard to feel bad when I know he’s being a big weenie. I’ve seen him “sick”. He’s a man-baby. Bet if volley ball season was still on he’d play… but because he’s free then he’s sick. Pfft. Pass.

Mean while… (to be continued)


just friends

January 12, 2016

Friends…. Just friends….

Hold tight while I try to justify my friendship with PanMan

I know what you’re thinking… if that is something I am tring to justify then there might already be an issue. The fact that I need it (over) qualified… or maybe I’m protesting too much??? Let me humor myself, k?

a person whom one knows and with whom one has a bond of mutual affection, typically exclusive of sexual or family relations.

Hm… that has the word sexual in it. Let’s skip over real quick.

synonyms: companion, soul mate, intimate, confidante, confidant, familiar, alter ego, second self, playmate

…this is NOT helping!

a member of the Religious Society of Friends; a Quaker.

What? um… lets check the verb form.

add (someone) to a list of contacts associated with a social networking website.

THERE! See… we are JUST friends. 🙂

Okay okay okay… Let’s do “FRIENDSHIP”.

the emotions or conduct of friends; the state of being friends.
synonyms: relationship, close relationship, attachment, mutual attachment, association, bond, tie, link, union; informalbromance.

haha Who is in charge of this? I’ll try this again later.