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November 30, 2017

I went to a health and life coaching conference a few weeks ago. This thing was so life changing for me.

There I discovered that I’ve spent my entire life shutting down all the emotions coming in and out of me. Let me explain that better.

The past few years I’ve become this person that feels so much… I thought I was just because I was a female taking birth control in my late 20s. I thought this was just the hormonal dip and dive of live. Turns out… I’m just an emotional person. And I began accepting that about me a year or so ago. But I was always sorry about it. I was always wishing I was “stronger” or more “even”. I apologized for feeling and apologized even more for expressing those feelings. Good, bad, or ugly. My friends even poked fun at me because I was the “emotional one”. And again, I was apologetically emotional. All the feels. Wishing I could stifle them. Thinking that would make me a better person… a better significant other… a better friend.

At this conference I discovered that it’s not to my detriment that I feel more. It’s my GIFT! I have never looked at it this way. Like I said, I figured it was an emotional imbalance. Lol… i mean… i even blogged about my birth control hunt because the moods that were swinging. ha! But no. A gift. 🙂 Not every one is blessed enough to feel as deeply as me. But what have I been practicing my whole life?

Shutting

it

off.

I don’t know anything else. It’s always been my go-to. I am use to walking into large groups of people and completely shutting out the world. I claimed introvert. I made that the reason for how I became in large groups of people. But i’m not! I LOVE people. I love talking to people. I love new people. I love the connection. So why this shut down? Once I accepted this part of me it became so obvious to me. I walked into large groups of people and shut off because I was taking in way too many of other’s emotions. I was feeling too many of something else from outside of my body. My knee jerk reaction to feelings… ew! Make it stop! lol! I had no idea. Gah! I’m a fucking empath. Where did that come from??? And I can’t help but think of how ironic it is that my rational, logically mind has finally thrown its hands up and bent its knee to my true self. I am an empath.

Thru the conference as the veil was being lifted from my eyes about my gift I’d been denying I took on a new mantra. Stay Open. I fight myself constantly on just shutting down. I repeat in my mind, “Stay open.” Right now it’s a constant practice. I know it’ll come more and more natural. I not only want to accept this, but I want to harness this. I want to learn how to use this gift of reading others and being this channel for the good of others. I’ll be able to use this so much to help my clients!

I’m so fucking glad to have FINALLY accepted this about me. Since leaving this conference I’ve never felt so whole in my entire life. I’ve never felt so full. I’ve never ever felt SO BIG!

The universe is shaping me into something quite beautiful and I am open and ready to accept all of life and all the gifts it wants to grant me!

Who knew that changing my careers would be such a spiritual journey for me. I cannot express enough how much gratitude I have for this whole transformation.

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It’s time to do the blog thang again :)

November 30, 2017

You ever let too much time pass on your blog that you can’t even bear to even try to catch up your followers?

I’m there.

So… long story short. I’m single. I’m in the best place I’ve ever been in. I’m excited about whats going on now and I’m excited whats in the near future!

My business is chug chugging along. It’s slow, but it’s all mine! And I’m very excited about it. I love the clients I have right now. I can’t wait to continue to gain more and more people that I can help.

I’m a Health Coach! I help people get out of the yo-yo dieting rut and people who stay stuck in restriction mode and give them the tools they need to create healthy habits that last! No more dieting! Just being consistently better with habit changes. This is life changing and I believe in this 110%. SO SO SO good.

I’ve been learning so much about myself. You guys know, I like analyzing my past and learning myself thru it. Well the past few months has been one big gold mind of learning opportunities about myself.

Blogs soon to come.

I’m an empath??

Trey… you guys remember him?

Where I am in the bdsm scene.

I’ve hired a life coach to keep me focused on building my business! Pumped about this one!

Would you look at that… I might have the energy for the catch up game after all!